I dunno, i feel depressed sad an hated. My heart was broken once again. So im just feeling like im dead to this world. Like i shouldnt have ever existed. I dont know. Im just about to say screw this. Heh my life went to shit this year. All my friends moved, so i have no one to chill with anymore. Well i have a couple left but their moving next year. Im just like i dont belong in this place. Maybe i should find a way to get away from this world. Thoughts are going through my head. I have no feelings but yet i feel sadness an depression. Anti-depressants dont help believe me.

Well thats what ive been up to these past couple days. Just moping around my house thinking about life an the shit that comes with it. There is no hope for me, i found that out a while ago. No one will be able to change my mind this time. I have no love for anyone anymore an no one has for me. Im probably not goin to be around much longer. If there is something wrong with my brain ill be put back in the psych ward for the rest of my life, mainly because i could loose memories an basically loose my mind.